Meltdown

So I have already had my morning meltdown minutes into my workday. My boss came over to the teller line to inform me that our Commercial Lender had been let go as part of the bank's efforts to downsize and save money. They say it is all for the good of the customers, but I honestly believe our customers will be enraged at the loss of this woman. She dealt with all of our big farm customers and had established relationships with her customers. I just could not handle it. My absolute rage came out in tears, and my boss told me that she completely understood my views but she had had a few days to take it all in (her explanation as to why I was crying and she wasn't). This had nothing to do with my bosses, either. They are not the ones that make that decision. It is the higher ups, the CEO and vice presidents that make these decisions. Fantastic, right?! I told the other girls here that I honestly, with all my heart, wish they would have let me go instead of this woman, but my measly $600.00 a month that I scrape in part time is nothing compared to the salaries of the commercial lenders. My boss also informed me that she will receive a severance pay, but I still don't feel better. It is still CRAP!

I have had my very first bottle of wine with an actual cork, ever! I was really in the mood for a nice red wine, so I sent Big T to the store to pick one out for me. I had one in mind, and the only reason I wanted it was because the label was neat. :) I am not the wino I want to be because I am not old enough yet, so I don't know anything about a good wine or how to choose one from a local grocery store. All that being said, it was a very strong wine, 14% alcohol, and it was very warm. The bottle is a total keeper, too. I can't wait to use it as a decoration in my kitchen with the rest of my fat Italian men decorations. The bottle is green, so it's not one of those cheap glass bottles that would look tacky in my kitchen. HAHA! I can't figure out how to rotate my pictures, so I appologize for the tacky, "I don't know how to blog" look.

That is pretty much all the happenings of my life right now. I have been working away at the little bit of homework I have, and I have my first exam over four chapters this weekend. It's timed, but I have taken notes and read all the chapters, which is a huge step in the right direction for me. Two classes is working out so much better than four. It is so much less stressful and easier to convince myself to do the work. This weekend should be a pretty quiet one for me. I have no plans besides working for three hours tomorrow and Sunday school, which I fully intend to be on time for this weekend. I'm hoping to get all caught up on homework and make lots more hats. I have more time for hats, now, but I also wanted to start a baby blue afghan for the girl that is having a baby. I had already started a girl one, but that is on hold until someone has a girl. :) I hope you all are having lovely weeks with little disappointment and much familial joy. When the times get tough, try to remember all the wonderful things you do have instead of those you are without. That's hard for me, but I'm giving it a shot. :)

This is my latest endeavor. I have learned to make slipper socks on my baby hat loom. I call it that, but it's just the smallest loom in the set. My sister suggested using the 4" loom for kids slipper socks, so I think I will try that. I had purchased a ton (!) of sock yarn to make socks for Christmas gifts only to find out that using sock yarn is way too time-consuming. The problem is, I bought the yarn about two months ago. I called the store, and they will let me exchange the yarn for other stuff in the store, which is what I wanted. However, if the yarn has been on sale in the past four weeks, which my sister warned me it may have been, I will only get to exchange my yarn for the sale price. Here's the kicker, though. I payed $5.00 a skein!! I am returning ten balls of yarn unless I can find more. That is $50.00 worth of yarn, and I will be very disappointed if I do not get the full $50.00 out of it. Also, on top of that minor setback, my devil cat got into my yarn and pulled out three or four of the sock yarn balls, ripped the label off them and tore them apart all over the living room. I took each ball and re-wrapped it by hand, but they are not quite as aesthetically pleasing as the machine wrapped skeins. I am so frustrated with my cat! It's not her fault because I left them in her reach, and cats are drawn to yarn.

Anyway, tonight is Friday night, and I will be staying home to work on homework because I really don't want to try to do it this weekend. I decided to just stick with two classes instead of adding a third. The third class I was going to take had a bunch of labs, a moon watching project, a assignment that had us going to the planetarium, along with the regular reading, discussions, and homework. On top of that, it was a self paced class. There were no specific deadlines except to have a certain amount of work done by midterm and have it all done by the end of the semester. I can't handle classes like that because I can't make my own schedule. I have a hard enough time keeping track of my own life without adding another schedule into it. Two classes is good for now. I can focus on them with all the energy they require without feeling burned out or like I didn't get to live my life.

I am very tired right now. Our bank stays open until 6 on Fridays, but the lobby closes at 5. I'm here for an hour by myself, and it is really a kill joy. It is taking away my energy to get my homework done, but I just have to keep reminding myself that I am going out to enjoy the day with Big T tomorrow. We are going to the "city," going to Hobby Lobby to exchange that yarn and wander, then going to the book store to check out a new book we are going to read together. It's called "Love as a Way of Life: The Seven Languages of Love." It was recommended to me by a friend, and apparently it is going to teach us about each other's personalities and teach us how to better serve each other's personalities. I'm really looking forward to getting inside Big T's head and learning about why he does the things he does. Hopefully it will help me to not be so short tempered with him, and hopefully, he will learn that my fuse is short. ;-) We are also going to watch the movie Fireproof tomorrow night as suggested by another friend. We are going through some relationship building right now because we have had a rough time of it since we moved to the new appartment. We have just argued and not spent any quality time together, and I'm ready to nip that in the bud before it gets out of hand.

I hope all is well and creative in your homes! Have a good night!