As of two hours ago, McMamma said Stellan had just slipped into prolonged V-Tach. This is what she and many others had been praying against. It is a very deadly arrhythmia. I simply don't understand. I want to learn something out of this because I know I am supposed to, but I am honestly too frustrated. I am frustrated that it is not as simple as saying, "God, heal this baby because you promised healing." I am frustrated I cannot fix this families pain and frustrations. I am frustrated for all the questions rolling through my mind.
It is moments like this, when the cycle of life is flipped completely upside down that I begin to feel ill at ease. I mean, aren't the elderly supposed to die to make room for new life? Isn't that how the cycle is supposed to go? Then why do people still lose their babies, mothers who carried the children, nourished them before and after birth, loved them with all their life, are losing their babies. Why?
Please continue to pray for the family as you feel led, and also pray for me as I need peace and understanding.